Thursday, March 24, 2011

heartbroken


it has been a rough couple of weeks. after watching our dalmatian, sara, slowly age over the last couple of years, she really took a rapid decline and after much bedside care and many tears, we had to put her to sleep last week.

she was such a wonderful dog with a beautiful and unique personality. she was more than just a pet to us, she truly was a strong member of our little family. my husband took her to work with him for so many years and then once i started to mainly work from home, about 4 or 5 years ago, she was never more then 6 feet away from me.

she never learned how to play fetch and didn't get along with too many adult dogs (she preferred puppies. and babies.) but she loved going on walks with us. and sitting with us at the park. and just being anywhere we were. she loved having her 'pack' together. that was when she was most relaxed. just the three of us.

she was a little prone to injury and sickness but was always such a trouper at the vet, never making a fuss and always putting up with whatever contraption was needed. read: multiple sizes and types of cones, boots, leg wraps, multiple head wraps, large t-shirts, gruesome stitches, a near amputation etc.

she had such a caring and observant personality. if voices were raised she would get concerned and start to shake. if tears were shed she would instantly wake up (if sleeping) and come over to try to help console by licking and pressing her body into you. if sickness struck she would be extra good and always watching.

i miss her with my whole being. i guess with pets you get used to being in a routine and that is what i'm struggling with the most. as the daily routine goes on, it really emphasizes just how involved in our lives she was. waking up, leaving the house, coming home, dropping a scrap while cooking, watching tv, saying goodnight, they are all constant reminders that she is gone.

we feel fortunate we had so many good years with her. she held on until she was almost 14. we have a ton of photos that we've been pouring through (over 1100 on the computer alone) and videos which remind us of the good times. we love and miss her so much. she will always be in our hearts and thoughts. and always a part of our family.

13 comments:

Claudia said...

I'm so sorry! Your dog had many wonderful years (omg, 14!!!) with you and just by looking at the pictures you know that she had a very happy life as a member of your family!

Diana said...

Oh Kate, she was such a special dog. I love that second photo of her on the leash - her face is just too adorable!

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I can't even imagine how tough it must be.

considered design said...

so sorry kate... she was lovely! I can't even think how I would feel. Ax

Pinecone Camp said...

Sara was so sweet. Plugger loved her too. As I told you, I think they're playing together again, somewhere.
I love all these pics of her. she was adorable. xo

Lisa said...

Kate - so sorry about your loss. Those aren't throw away Hallmark words . . . I mean "your loss" because she was such a constant companion to you and she was an intuitive and empathetic lass. It's a blessing that our animal loves are so in touch with us and we're fortunate for their sweet souls and how they enrich our lives forever. I can only guess how you're feeling.

Missing Goat said...

Oh, my eyes are full of tears for you. I'm so sorry. It's so painful, but you had such a wonderful life with her. xxh

Dagmar said...

I just found you blog and totally understand about losing your beloved 14 year old Dalmatian..I had tears in my eyes reading your tribute to Sara. We had 2 Dalmatians..Cookie (a brown dalmatian) 15 1/2 when we had to put her to sleep in nov 2009 an our rescue black Dalmatian, , Pebbles who was 13 1/2 in Jan 2009. It was a tough year losing them both.. When you describe Sara, she sounds and looks much like Pebbles. Aren't they the most loving dogs..so glad you have lots of photos..and ours loved walks so much as well.. Thinking of you and just know you were they best human guardian Sara could of had and she obviously adored you.
I did a tribute to my girls as well.if you like to see them they are in the footer of my blog.
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Dagmar
http://fromdagmarsdesk.blogspot.com

anabela / fieldguided said...

Oh Kate, I am so sorry to hear about your pup. xo

lesley [smidgebox] said...

oh, kate. i'm so sorry. i hope your memories of sara will help heal your wounds. i love the photos you've shared here, and the lovely stories. she sounds like she was a pretty incredible companion.
xo

Carolyn said...

Kate, My heart is breaking for you. I know how it feels.
Sending you a big hug with this note.
carolyn

Carolyn said...

Such a wonderful dog! I am so sorry to hear about your loss.

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Tracey Ayton Photography said...

Kate, I stumbled upon your blog while getting caught up on the DLBW site and saw this post about Kate. She reminds me so much of my dog Griffon (he's on some of my posts) They truly are always there for you, sniff, I'm tearing up as I type this. She was beautiful!

Anonymous said...

i'm a first time visitor to your blog, and this just made my heart ache for you. i have had my two cats for almost four years now, and i don't even want to think about the day when they won't be here! pets are with us for much too short a time. rip sara.